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Hopeless-Guilt: Don't Die on My Shift Part 2

staring at the vast ocean can make you feel....hopeless?
A patient of mine died this morning.

Well, as a medical doctor it happens every now and then despite every effort put in making sure that the patient keeps breathing.

But even then, there is nothing that can prepare you for what--to some patients eventually--is coming.

During my work as a general practitioner, I've seen few deaths--too many already--but I find that losing a patient now is still as saddening as when I was a fresh graduate doctor.

There's a sense of hopeless and guilt when I finally had to announce it to the family that their beloved one has passed away. Feels like all my years in medical school was for nothing.

Over the years, I've come up with a plan to toughen myself--to cope with the situation, so to speak--so I'll get over with it quick and get on with other patients that are still living and breathing and certainly need my help.

It doesn't always work. But there is one thing that I keep on tell…

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